”Being a mother felt difficult at times but I feel I did my best for my children”.
A mother’s love is unconditional. It is a love that motivates and empowers us to be the best version of ourselves. My role model was my great-nan. She always inspired me as a person and lived to the grand age of 103. She used to say that thinking positively and enjoying every moment of life is very important. She also used to say that laughter is a good form of therapy, no matter how hard life gets. I loved staying over night on a weekend at her house. It’s one of my favourite childhood memories. W also loved our family holidays to Tenby where we were vising my dad’s family.
In 1990 I gave birth to my 1st son, the one who made me a Mum. I was a 14 year old girl who was frightened of the unknown of bringing a baby into the world. While I was pregnant with my son I still attended school and once he was 4 months old I went back to full time education. While I was at school he went to a nursery. I left school with 8 GCSE’s, but once I left education I just concentrated on being a full time mum. By 19 I gave birth to my 2nd son. It was difficult being a young mum to 2 children under 5, but everyday was a learning experience. By the time my 2nd son was 2, I was asked to help run a playgroup. The circumstances of my life again got in the way and when I was 23 I gave birth to my daughter.
3 children under 9 at that age was extremely challenging but also rewarding. At the age of 29 I went back to education to gain qualifications to become a Teaching Assistant. I worked at a special needs school after I qualified for 10 years. Then again circumstances got in the way. My daughter got diagnosed at the age of 15 with an eating disorder and BPD. Seeing my daughter fighting with her own thoughts on a daily basis is heart breaking. I am her mum, full time carer and friend. Some days are a struggle but I wouldn’t change being a mum for anything else.
2 Years ago I also become a Nana for the 1st time because my 1st born son become a dad to a daughter. Then this year I become a Nana for a 2nd time. I felt a proudness seeing my son become a dad. Now I’m not just a mum which I love more than anything, but I’m also a Nana to 2 beautiful granddaughter’s which is the most precious feeling ever.
How was my motherhood? I felt very scared of the unknown at the beginning and often felt I was all alone at times. For advice and support I would talk to my family and close friends. Reaching the right professionals is also important and do not hesitate if you need that extra support. Simple things like a hot bath or painting your nails helps a lot to find some peace during busy days
These days I enjoy moments with my pets and walking my dogs. I love reading books, especially Harry Potter and can watch the films over and over again.
Hard times are part of life and motherhood, but I still love it and enjoy every moment with my children and grandchildren. It really does feel amazing to be a mum to three children and two granddaughters!